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INFP.
Myer-Briggs type indicator. Stands for Introverted iNtuition Feeling Perceptive.
It's not hard to imagine that, because I experience it myself. But I think it's so ironic that I cannot step out for what I want. Sure, I can do that in front of friends. But even with just acquaintances, classmates, even virtual settings, I cannot. Why not? Why am I so obsessed about what people think of me? Why can't I just throw all those cares away and live out honestly as who I want to be?
I don't know why. I just can't. I don't have the resolve, I don't have the willpower, I don't, I don't.
Where can I get it? How can I train myself to become just the a bit more extroverted? I want to make an impact, and a beneficial one at that. Have I done that? I know I have, but how can it affect the millions of people that have or will make contact with me, whether in real life or just a quick brush on the internet?
I remember learning this statistic: Even the most introverted person will influence 10,000 people in their lives. The absolute most introverted person. Am I even that introverted? Probably not. I suppose this is little encouragement though.
I just want to break through that barrier, but I still need to find that strength, that power, that love and hope that can carry me through, and I can become a better person each day the dawn brings forth.
*The personality disorder test was not professional, only an estimate, but pretty accurate at that.
Myer-Briggs type indicator. Stands for Introverted iNtuition Feeling Perceptive.
As an INFP, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit into your personal value system. Your secondary mode is external, where you take things in primarily via your intuition.
— from http://www.personalitypage.com/INFP.htmlWhat I really want to focus on is the "I" part of the INFP. Introverted. What I see it as is strange. How can I be so introverted, so shy? Yet I took a personality disorder test* not too long ago and one of my high-risk 'disorders' was being histrionic. Meaning I crave attention.
It's not hard to imagine that, because I experience it myself. But I think it's so ironic that I cannot step out for what I want. Sure, I can do that in front of friends. But even with just acquaintances, classmates, even virtual settings, I cannot. Why not? Why am I so obsessed about what people think of me? Why can't I just throw all those cares away and live out honestly as who I want to be?
I don't know why. I just can't. I don't have the resolve, I don't have the willpower, I don't, I don't.
Where can I get it? How can I train myself to become just the a bit more extroverted? I want to make an impact, and a beneficial one at that. Have I done that? I know I have, but how can it affect the millions of people that have or will make contact with me, whether in real life or just a quick brush on the internet?
I remember learning this statistic: Even the most introverted person will influence 10,000 people in their lives. The absolute most introverted person. Am I even that introverted? Probably not. I suppose this is little encouragement though.
I just want to break through that barrier, but I still need to find that strength, that power, that love and hope that can carry me through, and I can become a better person each day the dawn brings forth.
*The personality disorder test was not professional, only an estimate, but pretty accurate at that.
