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Hah~ I like how I just about never update on here anymore.
Actually I don't.

One of my friends was willing to adopt four of my guppies, since I had to make room for at least nine two-week old baby fry. I decided to give them to her on Sunday, when we would see each other at church. But they died before they could reach her hands.

I feel so bad, because it was my neglect that killed them. I failed to stop my father who naively used tap water (treated) to contain the fish instead of aquarium water. Apparently the new water was too much of a shock and all four of them died.

Guilt guilt guilt.

Even if it is just four small fish, I just feel awful that I killed something. Even if I blame it on my father, it's still my fault.

aaaaAAAA.



But I guess I have to ignore it, since there's nothing else to be done.

This week I'm helping out at my church's children's art camp. Man, it's exhausting, and some of the kids are vehemently vexing. But most of them are just fine.

Also on Wednesday, I'll be completing driver's ed with the final lesson: the infamous parallel parking. Honestly, I'm tired of driving school, especially since I've had to endure watching at least three other drivers complete the fourth lesson (country driving) on the same road.

I've also been watching Natsuyuki Rendezvous, a josei anime about a love triangle between a florist, a man, and the florist's dead husband, who is currently in ghost form. Unfortunately, only the man can see the ghost, causing some very interesting reactions. The concept is very entrancing, the characters and cast are excellent, and the music portions are emotion-inducing. Because it's in the josei genre, the feel is definitely very different and I can't feel any stereotypical vibes anywhere. The characters are very lifelike in personality and all likable. Just one thing though; I feel like the story is escalating so fast, despite the fact that it's actually calm and undramatic! Wait, it is kind of dramatic? I can't really tell anyways, because it feels like both. Ah, but it is a strange love triangle and I'm curious about it's ending. However, I'll probably finish the anime before I pick up the manga.

I love short hair this summer.
Oh, and if I'm not on the computer it's nearly almost always because I'm playing minesweeper (such a useless game) on my Kindle or watching gymnastics or swimming for the 2012 London Olympics. I'm so lazy.

~Dara-dara~

Got my Wacom Bamboo today!
OMG. I'm too happy. TOO HAPPY. ASDFGHJKL;

Meanwhile while I practice have a crappily-drawn Gai and Catharine.

My days are strange.

Yesterday I was having the best day in school. English was relatively easy, orchestra was fine (though we had a test), and I got to watch Gintama all 3rd period. And to top it off, my newspaper teacher ordered Cici's pizza for all of us. I never knew such a day at school could exist. My only problem was that my left foot's tendons kept cracking. More crack than pop.
When my feet get cold, they tend to stiffen and occasionally, they pop. But yesterday was extremely painful, especially when walking. I tried to pop out the cricks, hoping they would go away like they usually do but it didn't work. My foot was in pain the whole day. A blow to my otherwise delightful day. What sucked was before I was about to go to sleep, my foot stopped cracking and became itchy instead.

Today was a relatively sucky day at school: failed a quiz, had a fire drill, boring subjects in chemistry, substitute in AP World History. Yet however, I had no homework so I could do more at home, but somehow, it doesn't feel as fun as it was yesterday.

I don't know, these two days seem so similar yet so different. As I ramble on.




In other news, here's my plan to get things I want:

1. Pay off debt to my parents (I need $40)
2. Buy a tablet with remaining savings
3. More commissions
4. Save enough for a PSP + Hakuouki!
5. More commissions
6. Enough to buy current volumes of Pandora Hearts and Durarara!! (Coming out January 2012)

[Note: 4 and 6 are swappable]

Ah, I'm hopeless. This plan will take forever. I haven't had a commission since spring. I think I'll be more initiative...



In other other news, I'm selling AX: Alternative Manga. It's in relatively good condition and I'm willing to part with it for $25, shipping price included. Check out the link for more info.

 It happens a lot.

This year I have two summer assignments. One for English and one for AP World History; Ethan Frome and Guns, Germs, and Steel respectively.

Finished Ethan Frome, but I'm nowhere near the required annotation. Still, I'm planning to reread it the week before school starts (August 22nd).

However, Guns, Germs, and Steel is so thick and heavy, chapters up to 50 pages, maybe more. I don't know how I'll finish this in time, and write a summary with a supplementary picture. I've only done a chapter (plus the introduction) but have about 15 more to go. I'm doomed, all because I'm a stinking procrastinator.

I can't work on it much this week, because my church has an art camp I'm helping out with.

And I also have online P.E., which my parents said I had to finish before school starts.

And so there's little room for finishing my drawings. (Yet somehow I still find time to watch Ao no Exorcist, Tiger & Bunny, No.6, and the likes. Shame on me.)

At least I had the courage to quit scanlating.

Better get going.
This pretty much sums up the reasons I'm not posting as often here on dreamwidth.

Ah, today is the first day of my trip to the Grand Canyon. I never really mentioned anything about it in my blog, but if you've been tracking me on my tumblr, deviantart, or just talking to me, then you know about it.

Like before said, I'm not really excited for this trip. I mean, it's just looking at a giant crack in the ground. And some rocks. Which happen to be pretty. But since my parents have meticulously planned this trip, I can't say no, and I'm not going to complain. I'm going to try to enjoy it the best I can.

Right now I'm in the motel with insecure internet access. But at least there is internet. And at least it's decent. Not like anyone is really trying to hack into this silly little netbook anyways.

It took 10 hours to drive all the way here, Albuquerque, New Mexico. Yup, that accounts for the sore bottoms today. At least I wasn't sitting in the middle like my sister, whose seat is extremely uncomfortable. I do feel sorry for her.

But as we drove into New Mexico, we began to see little mesas and to be honest, I became awed. It was pretty beautiful, the sights. The mountains were pretty cool too. This certainly gives me more hope for the Grand Canyon; if I can be awed by those small rocks, then I can be awed by a spectacular ravine most likely.

For lunch we ate at a Carl's Jr. The ladies seemed a bit overwhelmed with the customer demand and we waited a while for our order. Apparently it had got mixed up and forgotten, but they quickly worked to get us our food, and as an apology they even gave us two free cookies. Ah, they were nice people.

During the ride we did watch Baccano, all the way to episode 7. I got carsick after staring at the screen too long. But it's really nice to re-watch amazing anime.

For dinner we went to this Chinese restaurant. On the sign, it claimed to be the only authentic Chinese restaurant in the entire state of New Mexico. The service was nice. The waiter actually truthfully told us that some of the items on the menu were American Chinese, not authentic Chinese, but they advised us on our choices and we got a really good meal.

My fortune cookie says, "A clear conscience is usually the sign of a bad memory." Wonder if that really applies to me. On the back: "LEARN CHINESE: - Skating 滑(liu) 冰(bing) - Lucky Numbers - 49, 28, 51, 20, 6, 7"

I'm tired from the trip. It's been a long ride and tomorrow will be at least 5 hours worth. I hope you all are having a fabulous week.