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altairtherookJust so you know, I'm just an Asian girl trying to survive in a stereotypical world.
This blog is pretty much an account of my life. Day to day, week to week. Boring stuff, probably. But if you do take the effort to listen and hear me out, I thank you for your time.
I really like Durarara!! the anime, and for some reason, Shizuo just reminded me of my brother too much. The only points I could put down was that (1) they were both stronger than they looked (2) they had 2 sides, one calm, one outraged. I couldn't find anything else, but both of them seemed so much the same.
I did share Durarara!! with my brother, and he told me that Shizuo was like a grown-up kid. He has tantrums, likes sweet things (episode 7, where he drinks milk and his brother eats some treat of his), and etc. etc...
Know where I'm leading with this?
Today, I finally made the connection. Both my brother and Shizuo were pretty childish. They were like 5-year olds with the intellectual capacities of regular people their age, but the way they behaved, they acted was what was making me compare them - subconsciously.
I swear, my brother is outrageously childish. My mother tells him to drink milk (ok, he doesn't really like milk like Shizuo) and he just refuses. I mean, it'd be ok if he refused passively, but he just glares at my mother defiantly and says no in the rudest way possible. And that's what provokes her, so she insists. And this tumbling cycle rolls all over itself and soon there's a fiery atmosphere. If only he had been polite, none of this would've happened.
About almost everything has to be his way. It's what irks me. He always has to get the best. It's selfish, and I hate it very much.
Now don't get me wrong, my brother can be such an idiot, but he can be quite nice and thoughtful too. He just doesn't show it very often. He'll give me tips on art, advice on social problems (though I don't always take it), share delicious snacks he has, treat me to ice cream with his own money. We could spend a whole night discussing anime/manga/games/concepts/theories/whatever.
But this is probably a typical love/hate relationship between brother and sister. It's great, because we can be complete jerks to each other but in the end, we'll still stay buddies.
But if only I could help him see his mistakes, and not get beat up about it. That's what's impossible.
This blog is pretty much an account of my life. Day to day, week to week. Boring stuff, probably. But if you do take the effort to listen and hear me out, I thank you for your time.
I really like Durarara!! the anime, and for some reason, Shizuo just reminded me of my brother too much. The only points I could put down was that (1) they were both stronger than they looked (2) they had 2 sides, one calm, one outraged. I couldn't find anything else, but both of them seemed so much the same.
I did share Durarara!! with my brother, and he told me that Shizuo was like a grown-up kid. He has tantrums, likes sweet things (episode 7, where he drinks milk and his brother eats some treat of his), and etc. etc...
Know where I'm leading with this?
Today, I finally made the connection. Both my brother and Shizuo were pretty childish. They were like 5-year olds with the intellectual capacities of regular people their age, but the way they behaved, they acted was what was making me compare them - subconsciously.
I swear, my brother is outrageously childish. My mother tells him to drink milk (ok, he doesn't really like milk like Shizuo) and he just refuses. I mean, it'd be ok if he refused passively, but he just glares at my mother defiantly and says no in the rudest way possible. And that's what provokes her, so she insists. And this tumbling cycle rolls all over itself and soon there's a fiery atmosphere. If only he had been polite, none of this would've happened.
About almost everything has to be his way. It's what irks me. He always has to get the best. It's selfish, and I hate it very much.
Now don't get me wrong, my brother can be such an idiot, but he can be quite nice and thoughtful too. He just doesn't show it very often. He'll give me tips on art, advice on social problems (though I don't always take it), share delicious snacks he has, treat me to ice cream with his own money. We could spend a whole night discussing anime/manga/games/concepts/theories/whatever.
But this is probably a typical love/hate relationship between brother and sister. It's great, because we can be complete jerks to each other but in the end, we'll still stay buddies.
But if only I could help him see his mistakes, and not get beat up about it. That's what's impossible.
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Date: 2 Feb 2011 08:46 pm (UTC)